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Sabbath Devotional :: Encountering my Brother at Crazy Horse Memorial
Sometimes to really see someone or something, we must look and see again in a repeating cycle until the real messages God intends for us finally penetrate into our hearts and minds. Just last week, during my return trip from the lakes of Nisswa, Minnesota back to Provo, Utah, I experienced a serendipitous moment of inspiration despite my strong desire to “just get back home” as quickly as possible. As we took our final glance up at the impressive gray faces of four US presidents carved into Mt. Rushmore, two of my kids continued to bicker while my mother gently suggested that we make just one more stop in the…
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Sabbath Devotional :: Some Anxious Thoughts about Juneteenth
I was thrilled to hear President Nelson mention Juneteenth in announcing the Church’s first small steps towards real partnership with the NAACP. I’m so glad that it will be a national holiday, a belated and partial acknowledgment of the horrors visited on our Black sisters and brothers for generations, a moment for those whose freedom was so late in coming to celebrate and be celebrated. I learned about Juneteenth embarrassingly late in life. And, truthfully, I think embarrassed is how I still mostly feel; the privileged ignorance of much of my life makes me ashamed. I don’t feel entitled to participate fully, or at least I don’t know how to…
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Sabbath Devotional :: Being Unmoored and the Lost Sheep
I have always loved anchors — the symbolism and the idea of being anchored to something. Of having something that will keep us secure despite all the winds and tempests. But lately, the word “unmoored” has been echoing in my head more and more. Unmoored means “not or no longer attached to the mooring.” A mooring is the chains or other material that keeps a boat securely fastened to the dock. (And that’s the extent of my very rudimentary shipping knowledge.) But in many ways, “unmoored” is a perfect word for the feeling I, too, often feel creeping in. And I see it reflected in those around me. We know…
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Sabbath Devotional :: Forgiveness, Reconciliation, and Peacemaking
I no longer feel overwhelmed with emotion when I think about a particular evening this past year, but I still remember the pain I felt. It was an unfamiliar feeling for me — one of deep betrayal and disappointment. Cruel, untrue things had been said about me because of my work with Mormon Women for Ethical Government. And it stung because the attacks were so personal. My closest friends comforted me, and I tried to shake it off because I had important work to do. But initially, I really struggled to put it in perspective. Through the power of prayer, I was very quickly able to soothe the stinging and…
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Sabbath Devotional :: Stumbling Blocks to Stepping Stones
There are stories beneath our feet. Some are marvelous. Some are horrifying. Many are a mix of both. Here is what happens when we learn to unearth and examine them all. Walking the tree-lined streets of Bad Homburg, a suburb north of Frankfurt where my family and I have lived for many years, I sense daily the reverberations of stories beneath my feet. This happens in part by way of “Stolpersteine” (literally “stumbling stones”), the brass-covered, engraved blocks of cement cut the same size as surrounding cobblestones in between which these special markers are placed. Their location is significant: They point to the last residence of former locals who were…
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Sabbath Devotional :: Savior, Redeemer of My Soul
My Testimony is simple: My Heavenly Father thinks the world of me, and My Savior has given me access to the greatest power this world has ever known: His atonement. Because of this, My family will be ok, My scholars will be ok, My community will be ok, All of my people will be ok in the eternal run, because he thinks just as highly of each of them, as he does me . . . And the same mercy he extends to me, on my worst behavior . . . The same strength he gives me, when I’m at my most disempowered . . . The same comfort he…
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Sabbath Devotional :: The Mist of Familiarity
“Life, & the world, or whatever we call that which we are & feel, is an astonishing thing. The mist of familiarity obscures from us the wonder of our being . . . . Life, the great miracle, we admire not, because it is so miraculous. It is well that we are thus shielded by the familiarity of what is at once so certain and so unfathomable, from an astonishment which would otherwise absorb and overawe the function of that which is its object.” This passage, which opens an essay by the English Romantic poet Percy Shelley, has been a touchstone for me since I first heard it in college.…
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Sabbath Devotional :: Verleih Uns Frieden
This week’s devotional is musical. In a version of my life where I was a little more talented and a lot braver, I would have studied choral conducting in college (formally, instead of just by spending more time in choir rehearsals than in class!). I might have made it my life’s work to champion the underrated choral works of Felix Mendelssohn—more interesting than Handel, more accessible for most choirs than Brahms. This week I’ve had his motet ‘Verleih Uns Frieden’ running through my head. It’s a fairly simple piece—your ward choir could learn it in 5 or 6 solid rehearsals—and the text is an interesting German variant of Dona Nobis…
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Sabbath Devotional :: Mourning with Those Who Mourn
The past year and counting have provided us with ample opportunities to reflect upon and to fulfill our covenant to “bear one another’s burdens,” “mourn with those that mourn,” and “comfort those that stand in need of comfort.” (See Mosiah 18:8-10). Far too many moments. Far, far, too many. The deaths, loss, and grief brought about by Covid-19. The deep pain of our fellow Black siblings in light of the wrongful deaths/murders and also of our Asian and Pacific Islanders (AAPI) siblings following the murders in Atlanta and the other instances of AAPI hate and violence. The continued rise in murdered and missing Indigenous women, girls, and two spirits. And…
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Sabbath Devotional :: The Middle Space
It has been a week full of mourning with and holding space for the pain of people I love. I feel a strong call to sit with, listen, and try to carry some of their burden. It is sacred work to be able to fulfill baptismal covenants in this way, but it also means that I am a little bit weary, so I am bringing you a simple devotional this evening, filled with the words of others. I don’t feel particularly naturally skilled at mourning with those who mourn, other than being an introvert who is satisfied to listen while others talk. But I have learned over the years that…